All we can do is keep breathing, sometimes 💙
All we can do is keep breathing, sometimes 💙
I crave for a touch.. someone's embrace, that warmth and closeness. I crave for a soul that can intertwine with mine. I crave for eyes that can't stop looking into mine. You know, there is something crazy about holding someone/being in someone's arm. It's crazy, it's beautiful. It makes your heartbeat faster and at the same time calms your demons down. I crave for a touch, your touch, I can't wait anymore.
They tell me that I need to love myself. I know. They tell me I need to embrace the solitude. I know. I'm trying. Don't you think I want to be happy too? I do and not with anyone but just my own self. I'm trying. I'm learning. I'm not going to give up. I know it will take time. I know it's not easy for someone who could never love herself. But I will make it true, for myself, for better. Because loving yourself is one of the best things you can do. :)
You're not supposed to like some things because you excel in them, sometimes you like to do some things because they make you feel good and at peace. Art is something I relate to. I make mistakes. I don't know the techniques. I mostly suck at it. But then, it makes me feel good, it is my form of escape.. from reality. Art is something I hope I never give up on in my life. :')
It had the power to make you numb and that's all I needed, I guess.
Never do anything with half of your heart. It might seem tough but it's not impossible. Whatever it is that you want to do, work for it with full dedication. It's okay if you don't like studying, it's okay if your life is not going on great right now, it's okay if there are so many hurdles, it's okay if you don't like people around you, it's okay if there is nothing okay and you feel lost. Just look at the bigger picture. Imagine what you want. Your goal. Now take a deep breathe. Think for once, will all these things matter when you will reach where you want to be? No, they won't.. This is not the end but just a beautiful beginning, work hard, please don't give up. Failing is okay, lagging behind is okay, not wanting to study or work is okay but you can't just skip the steps of life and reach to the destination right? You have to get through this phase and many more, despite failing or feeling miserable or getting lost. IT'S OKAY. Everything is okay. Work for your future self, embrace your present, let go what's already been done. Just work hard. You will succeed, soon! You're on the right track. The lights will guide you home, even in the dark. :') BELIEVE!
"I want to change the world, instead I sleep. I want to believe in more than you and me. But all that I know is I'm breathing. All I can do is keep breathing. All we can do is keep breathing, now."
We are all in such a desperate need of companions that we forget to be our own friends. We forget that we ought to love ourselves first instead of looking out, seeking love. Love has lost it's meaning, maybe it's nothing, maybe it's just an illusion. Maybe? We are walking on this journey, struggling, losing shit, still walking, people join us in this journey and leave mid way because they were tired or found better path, but the only thing constant that is with you is YOU. How can you not love yourself? How can you not embrace your individuality? Why do you need validation from others? You're enough. Love is just a word. People are temporary. Bonds are going to fade. But you, you're a warrior, you ought to keep believing in yourself, never let the faith fade away, you're not here to disappear. You are here to fucking be who you are and still be proud of it. Embrace yourself.
Loving too much can destroy everything.
Someone very dear to her always told her "Darling there will come a day when you will be standing all alone and you will still live, you will still continue to survive." She was afraid, afraid to be alone but also brave enough to face it. I was always proud of her and her courage. I believed in what her closest said and I also knew that we both will get through everything together. But today I'm standing alone, I let her slip away and I look at her from a distance, something hurts inside of me, it hurts really bad, not because I'm alone and she is happy but because I saw my home in her. Looking at her makes my heart ache. Because she was my beautiful escape. It's true, some of us have to get through things alone and it's not something good or beautiful or to be proud of, it's not pleasing to stand in a crowd and still be alone. It is what it is. But at least one of us is not alone. 13.11.17 4:15pm . . Artwork inspired by @monikajiarui 's photograph.
I love you :')
I like how this artwork I made is flawed from every angle and still looks beautiful. :)) . . I see bruises on my body, every day, new, different, painless but scary. No one touches me, no one has harmed me. But it feels like I'm disintegrating. I'm disintegrating into nothing. I don't know where I am going. And I don't want to know. I just want to disappear. Not that I'm unhappy, but I just feel I need this. I feel it's good to go sometimes, maybe I'm taking it easy, maybe I don't understand the value of things right now, but I want to go. Everyday I am happy, I am sad and I am everything normal. But I am not content. I dig deep to hide the ring my ex gave me, I dig deeper to hide the photograph of my deepest, dearest love that I tore. I'm not overwhelmed with the thoughts of my past, neither the future. Nothing affects me.
She wasn't hiding, she was just blinded. She had no idea about the girl hidden inside.
Good Vibes Only 🐳
My head's underwater but I'm breathing fine.